I've been thinking a lot lately about the online community. All of it: Facebook, Twitter, blogs, Instagram. I wouldn't say that I am very into social media but I look at Facebook normally everyday and, being that I am blogger, I spend a good deal of my free time looking at blogs. Which inevitably leads to a little comparison. Comparison of myself and all of those other people I read about through blogs, status updates, you name it. I love my life but the incessant reminders of where other people are at in their own lives has been weighing on me. How ready I am to have a baby, get married, buy a house, be successful in my career and my blog, look cute, have great clothes, great hair, a 401K, a bundle of savings, a plan for my future, a station wagon, a vacation home. It really never ends.
I happen to be a late bloomer, if you will. I think a lot of people in the Bay Area are. We get married later, have kids later, start careers later, buy houses much much later because, well, how many people can really afford a million dollar house at 25...I don't regret any of the choices I made. I saw amazing places and had experiences most people will never have. But I now find myself in a position of wanting some of those things that I blew off for so long. And, for this reason or that, I just can't seem to have them yet. So be it.
I have been having this nagging feeling that this online community that gives so much social connection in so many different forms isn't always so good. I'm thinking of taking a break from it. Not the blog. But probably the Facebook. Just give it a rest for a little while, live my life as it is, where it is. Because, the thing is, on the surface of all of those status updates and photo shoots and special occasions, all is happy and looks so so lovely. But you never ever know what lies underneath, you never get the full story, and you end up feeling like everyone's lives are all parties and vacations and sunbeams and fireworks, except yours.
So, cheers to the monotony and the ordinary. Today, on my day off, I'll probably make some food, help J plant tomatoes in our concrete "backyard", watch an episode or two of Revenge, make some long overdue phone calls and stress out about work tomorrow. Not all that exciting but that's what my life looks right now, in this moment.
I won't leave you without at least one bit of house porn, don't worry.
It's been a rather typical San Francisco week weather-wise. Hot (like, actually HOT) on Saturday, freezing cold and fogged in the rest of the weekend. This seems apropos.
I don't know what it is about this house/photo but I am in love. Maybe because it feels like it could be in Seattle with all of that mist hanging around. Or maybe it's the exposed beams and floor to ceiling windows. Or the fact that it feels so cozy in that bungalow style home (imagine how stellar a Christmas tree would be in that corner!).