1/8/13

On Leaps of Faith.

A dear friend told me awhile back that, at some point, I was going to have to take a leap of faith. The words resonated with me. I took them in and then just kind of set them on the back burner for the last 8 months. And then little things started happening. And the 'leap of faith' slowly moved back into focus. It has now become my phrase for the year. It continually reminds me during moments of sheer terror and discomfort that this is it, all in or nothing. 

I have always been the type of person who likes to keep her options open. I have never wanted to put all of my eggs into one basket, for fear of that basket falling over and breaking all of the eggs, I guess. I've never been able to stick to one career path either. I have a Bachelor's degree in Sociology, a Master's degree in International Public Health, a half of a degree in Chinese Medicine and a half of a degree in Interior Design. Right?! My student loan debt is, well, let's just say I'll be paying it off for the rest of my life unless I get rich or lucky. All of you people out there who went to college, knew what you wanted to do for the rest of your life and did it? You amaze me. I cannot even fathom. I hesitated for years about pouring all of my energy into design. I didn't know if it would work. I didn't know know if I could do it. I certainly didn't want to invest more money into a career path that I would, ultimately, not take. But you know what? It's been years now. I think I'm in it. Which is why this year, this very year that we are in right now, is the year where I'm doing it, I'm going to take that leap of faith. I'm going to put all of my eggs into this basket, cross my fingers and hope like hell that it all works out. Because I cannot be 34 years old and still beating myself to the bone everyday about my job. It's time to make some forward progress. 

It means working really long hours (last week I worked 13 hour days). But as everyone on Pinterest always says "Good things come to those who work their asses off and never give up." It also means feeling like I have no idea what I'm doing sometimes, being totally intimidated by people who know more than me and constantly reassuring myself that it's all going to work out. And hoping. A lot. My mother told me once, in response to me saying that I didn't want to get my hopes up about a job or something like that, that it is good to hope. This comes back to me all the time, especially as of late, when it feels like there is so much to hope for. So, here's to hoping. That my one major resolution for this year will come to fruition. To work for myself. Only. No side jobs, no part-time work. Just my business.
*I'd also like to have a baby but, as I'm learning, there's only so much you can do about that...*

What does all of this mean for the blog? More time, better posts, no sloppiness. It also means some exciting new collaborations with sponsors I couldn't be more delighted to work with and sharing images of my own space as it all {finally} starts coming together. That being said-I am currently accepting sponsors for The Rustic Modernist. I prefer to work with small, independent design companies because I want to support people like myself-the little guys who are on their way. Just click on that little Sponsor tab at the top of the blog and send me an email. 

Enough chatter for this morning. 
Some images that inspired me this weekend.








Francine Gardner | Natural Home Magazine

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